God, do You have a blackberry?

I need to talk to You. it really make me sick and sad. 

I've tried to understand what You mean but i can't. 

can i get into my dream college? 

You said, "no". can i make my parents proud? 

You said, "not now". 

can i make so many people smile because of me?
You said, "you have done". 

can i pay my promise? 

You said, "it's not important". 

So, what should I do, God? 

I can't stand of it. maybe there is a big sad smile behind the happy smile in my parents' face. my name isn't in my course's brochure, You know that it is one of what i want. i really happy with my friends' success, but what about me? God..i what to "PING!!!" you, i want to make You see for once again, maybe my last effort, my last hope, my last opportunity. 

I wanna send You voice note, and I tell my story from the first to the last. God, it is all about time, isn't it? I just hope and waiting..

The Meaning Of Life

Be born. Learn to talk. Go to school. Get up go to school. Study hard. Graduate. Look for job. Find better job. Make money. Make more money. Save money. Meet somebody. Go out with somebody. Marry somebody. Make money. Read "Men are Mars, Women are Venus". Move up the ladder at work. Make more money. Get up go to work. Come home and watch television. Have a baby. Mow the lawn. Have another baby. Make more money. Buy a family car. Buy bigger television. Hunting for supermarket sale. Make money. Buy Elmo&Barney videos for the kids. Eat at McDonald's. Go see the latest romantic comedy movie. Take a vacation to Disneyland. Buy a dog for the kids. Call the plumber when sink is broken.  Make more money. Cast your vote to "American Idol". Take up golf. Go to high school reunion. Make more money. Send kids to college. Get kind of fat. Become grand parent. Take Bayer aspirin for your Arthritis. Finish making money. Retire. Get old. Die.

Syfml

I just knew her last year and I know that she is a good girl. She has one brother and he is soooooo handsome. She lives in Tanah Abang and lives with her Uti. She has a cousin named Nina, has just passed the SNMPTN and got into FKUI. She is single and has a big glasses.

She has attended SNMPTN Camp for 2 weeks at Depok and I know that her eyes like a bear eyes. She studied, studied, and studied. Look like a robot I think, but she never give up. I really shocked with what have she done. I guess that she will pas the exam.

Unfortunately, not. I know what her feelings when Nina got FKUI. It's totally hurt her. Her eyes become bigger, I know she has just cried. I really wanna hug her, but I can't. She still can smile and even laugh with me and the others. As I remember, she wants to make her mom proud. I pray everyday for us to give us the best.

Simak UI has just finished and we are waiting for the result. She failed in UMB and SMUP Unpad. I dunno why she failed but the one thing that she must remember is Allah has just planned something for her and it'll be the best for her. She will wait a year for get FKUI if she fail in Simak UI.

I know it is your best. It is about time. I know you can get FKUI. You can, girl. I'll wait a good news from you next year, doctor. Do not forget to thank to Allah for all you have. I always pray for you..

for my dearest friend, Syifa Amalia.