God, do You have a blackberry?

I need to talk to You. it really make me sick and sad. 

I've tried to understand what You mean but i can't. 

can i get into my dream college? 

You said, "no". can i make my parents proud? 

You said, "not now". 

can i make so many people smile because of me?
You said, "you have done". 

can i pay my promise? 

You said, "it's not important". 

So, what should I do, God? 

I can't stand of it. maybe there is a big sad smile behind the happy smile in my parents' face. my name isn't in my course's brochure, You know that it is one of what i want. i really happy with my friends' success, but what about me? God..i what to "PING!!!" you, i want to make You see for once again, maybe my last effort, my last hope, my last opportunity. 

I wanna send You voice note, and I tell my story from the first to the last. God, it is all about time, isn't it? I just hope and waiting..